6.8.07

Just a momentary feeling, I so hope it is

I confess:
I am single.
Anyone can come and take me.


Well, of course I don't expect anyone to approach, having heard my childish confession. But you know, I was born to be "human" after all, and it seems nonsense to be just moderate in love, like monks in the temple. Strange I say such a thing? Right, to be honest, I am recently interested in a cute girl, but I can't(or perhaps mustn't) ask her out or express my own heart to her. I'm not sure whether this funny feeling is actually love, or it's just no more than an impulsive interest. I don't know whether she has ever been interested in me, either. Maybe she wants me to show how I feel than vice versa.

I hate myself being this emotional and gabbling such a load of hooey, unlike myself at all. I don't want another weight on my mind. I should get over this kind of sensation, for better grades. I am desperate to get straight-A's even at the cost of my joy.